First day of school was all in all a good one. I went to my lunch time class and I ran into a couple of friends in it. It is Sociology of the Family and it seems like it may be an ok class. Then my evening class, which is distance learning also, which means that the professor is in our classroom but there is a video and audio link to 5 other classes throughout the state, was not quite so great. The technology is just not up to par yet and it is always a cluster. So it took a lot longer than it should have for trying to get things started so I didn't get out as early as I would like. But I do like this professor and I don't mind it going longer I guess.
Had a weird kind of eating day. Not a bad weird, a good weird. I always read Christine's blog and say, how does she get by on those calories? I mean seriously, if she makes a 1000 it is a miracle. So today, I was in a tizzy. I did get my two eggs and 1/2 cup of cereal and milk in for breakfast and that was great, but for lunch I grabbed a can of soup I had, Harvest something or other, and the whole can was 50 calories worth. I didn't realize that until after I had it and needed to write the calories down. Wow, really 50 calories. My snack after lunch was my usual tuna with brown mustard and dill relish. And my before class snack was another Bumble Bee tuna snack pack. All told before class I had a total of 580 calories. That is around 300 less than usual. But I wasn't hungry at all. I am starting to wonder if I shouldn't reign in my calories to 1500 now, just to get it over with. Oh and for dinner, Kathy made a chicken salad with mustard, very little Miracle Whip, like 2 tablespoons she said, and onions and celery in a pita cut in half and stuffed with the mixture with lettuce on the bottom. I finished off the day with a frozen yogurt cup from Dannon. I am at this very moment at 1200 calories! And again, still not starving!! I like that I got so much protein today too cause I did a heck of a workout today and needed to rebuild muscles from that and yesterday's walking! I think I am gonna lead off the day with cardio tomorrow though. I didn't get any today and I am not looking good for time. I like to sleep so that will come first.
Well on to the title. As I am sure you have guessed, I got stuck in one of those high school student chairs today with the built in desktop that only allows for skinny folks! All through college, I have never liked being in the class rooms that have those. I always feel like I am causing internal injuries squeezing in there. I did not even think about the fact I had trimmed down when I walked in that class room and saw that, so I steeled myself for the upcoming pain, when voila! I slid in with no problem!! Holy crap it was so cool! And I have a new goal. I want to double the space between me and my desktop by the end of this class! It would be a great achievement!! Which reminds me, I was so down on me for my eating yesterday, I forgot to mention that at Silver Dollar City, I rode my favorite roller coaster three times Sunday!! I was so happy, and the best part, Lauren and I were riding together!! She is addicted just like me! I even bought the photo of us on the last ride. I will try to figure out how to get it on here soon.
Ok, I am gonna open up about a problem, or I guess more like an issue I have had the last 5 or so days. I have really been up on myself and my appearance here lately and I just feel so studly and proud of me all the time. Suddenly around Thursdayish, I started feeling like I was a fat turd again. I knew I wasn't but I just didn't have that great attitude and swagger about me. I had all my indicators that showed I was still thinner than the beginning, but in my consciousness, I just knew I was fat. It is winding down, and I worked all through it with new habits I have gained not being lost, but I wonder, did any of you really successful people I follow ever have those periods? In the past, when I got that feeling, it was all over but the crying baby. I would head out to fill that void with food, food and food. I hate that I was there, but it did give me a new dose of confidence in myself and the change of lifestyle I have chosen. I just don't want to have to deal with that a lot. I suspect a loss on the scale this Friday would likely bring with it a whole new burst of enthusiasm.
I have homework, so I better wrap it up. I sure did enjoy the posts of the folks I am following today. Kenzonce again made me look like a lazy turd, but I am glad to see it!! Allan made a very nice offer to help me with my diet. I know some find him abrasive, but I have never had one problem with him and will continue to associate with him even if he is a self proclaimed "leper" haha. All of you crazy bloggers add something to my journey and I am eternally grateful for it. I only hope that I can do the same for you!