Happy Thursday! I am so excited, I have a half day tomorrow, I get to go visit a good friend who is kindly selling us a nice functional washing machine in exchange for us coming to visit and share a meal with her. I love me some Bobbie Wiley! She is a great friend to have!
At my new job, the building is like 85 percent picture windows. Today I was walking my laptop down to the computer guy at the end of the building. He was trying to get my computer to talk to the network so I can use the wireless printer. He did battle with it all day, but he had to concede at the end of the day and promised to take up the fight tomorrow. Well on one of my several trips back and forth, I happened to look into the window and notice me. I have looked at myself in the mirror a million times since I have started this, but for whatever reason, this glance hit me the hardest. Do I see a skinny guy yet? No. But I also don't see that guy that looks like he is carrying a full term child, and is wagging (yes literally) his belly out in front of him. I love that guy I saw today. He was there the whole time, but I just had to go look for him. There is another, thinner and healthier guy in there too. He is hiding, but lurking and looking to get out of the great hole I dug for him. Slowly, surely, I am lowering that ladder down to him. Hold on guy.
So I haven't talked about it yet, but I have a great mother in law! She is so determined to go ride rides at Silver Dollar City in Branson, she is taking my family and paying the whole way for a weekend! I am really excited to go, but I have a conundrum. I have to make a hard decision between now and then and I have weighed(no pun intended) some of the possible consequences and repercussions of this decision. So I was thinking it honestly looks to me like I have dropped enough inches off this frame to fit most, if not all , of the thrill rides. However, I have two reservations. One being I really want to have a grand triumphant return to Silver Dollar City in March after a long winter of weight loss and healthy exercise and eating. I want to hear trumpets blaring and angels singing as I proudly wait in each line of each ride I have either had to get off of or didn't ride for fear of having to get off of it. I want that so bad! I can taste it! I don't want to take that away from me this weekend. Two being, I have one of two things that could happen on these rides this weekend. I could have greatly underestimated my inches lost, get in line for these things, and still have the disappointment of not fitting at all, or possible having to crush my skeleton to fit in. ORRRRR, I could fit in each ride well, and suddenly think "I got this!" and then lose some of my momentum and drive because I conquered one of my main challenges to myself. I am honestly not drama'ing this up (Lauren hates that term, I tell her to stop drama'ing it up when she is trying to pretend she is going to puke for eating something healthy!)I really am at a point of I can't decide. My initial thought is to ride the rides I have fit on recently, still enjoy myself, and walk away a happy camper in that regard, saving the triumphant return for March. But I really love thrill rides dang it! I welcome any thoughts you may have on this subject.
On to my daily "what I ate". It is kinda crazy, with this new job, I have not lost the urge to exercise, but I have lost the desire to eat during the day. I literally have forgotten the mid morning snack two days in a row, and got my afternoon tuna in late both days. Just not hungry and not looking to eat. So my calorie count has been low when I get home. I took care of that pretty quick yesterday with meatloaf, but today it was tuna wraps in that pita bread and then washed down with cantaloupe, a pickle from the jar mother in law made us, some salsa and chips, half of the chips I threw away and finally I wanted a bit more protein so I ate a couple of ounces of the left over meatloaf from last night. After all that, I am at 1440 calories. I likey. I could get used to this. Oh and one more anxiety this trip has caused me. I was debating the idea of weighing off cycle. I was gonna weigh tomorrow and see if I had made my next goal already. If the scale said 269 for me, I was going to ride the rides. But I decided no, I like the consistency I have been able to build up in my new lifestyle and I am gonna stick with it. I believe Sean nailed it when he said that consistency is the one thing lacking in many "diets", that urge to "reward your good day with a treat", that is poison my friend. It is going exactly against what it is you are trying to do, stop eating irresponsibly. I know weighing is not the same as giving myself a treat day, but as an athlete you get alot of superstitions and it just kinda sticks with you as you go on to being a non athlete. I have been successful doing what I am doing so far, so no good reason to change that!
I feel terrible that I haven't really done much blog visiting today. I have been busy all dang day and then had to come home and do some more work. I got Kathy's tires rotated for the trip too, so that is one less task. I think I have some collateral now to convince her to pack me up for the trip dang it! I hate packing! I promise I will try to do better tomorrow. I love seeing all the great stories and often draw a great deal of ideas and inspiration from many of them. I like every one of the ones I follow too. Most have different tones and it just goes to show, there isn't just one way to go about implementing a life change, there are several. So my bloggy type peeps, keep on inspiring me, and I will try to do the same for you.