Losing It For The Family

Losing It For The Family

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Day 25 My Latest Concern

Good fine Thursday evening folks in blogville. It is hotter than heck here in Arkansas let me tell ya! I saw the 10 day forecast and it looks like we may actually have a weeks worth of not 100 degree temps coming next week. Sure will be nice I know that it may actually make it down to the 70's at night.

So my tenure at the Baker Law Firm is winding down. I sure will miss that place. It is where I got my first taste of law and the office environment. I will say this, I learned a hell of a lot there that I can take on with me in my career and I thank Chuck Baker and Rinda Baker (no relation strangely) for the opportunity to get my start there. They took a flyer on me and I appreciate it. I also wanna shout out to Carrie Jernigan for always being there for me when I needed whatever it was I needed. She has been a great friend and coworker and I love her dearly and hope to see her do great things in life. Heck maybe one day we can practice together if I get my license and get worth a damn at lawyering. She's already good at lawyering, so I am the weak link in that equation.

I know none of that was related to weight loss, it just bore saying as it is important to me. Now on to my excitedness about weight loss! I am so frikkin overjoyed that tomorrow is weigh day. I know there is a loss there it is just killing me to not get to see how much it is yet! And I am seriously wondering how many inches I have taken off my belly. I am totally just filled with anxiety and worry about sleeping. Not really, I sleep no matter what.

So I was thinking the other day about how I have made this lifestyle a habit already and I love that. I can not count the amount of times I have not fallen prey to the "I want to eat" because I was out of calories already. It really is a great feeling no matter how many times it has happened. I just hope to have it an ingrained and non fragile habit within a couple of months. There is something I have not talked about in here that is a problem for me. I get bored easily even with success. Right now this is new and exciting and I don't have a great deal of problem with keeping motivated. But some day, if this is not a hard core, this is how I roll habit, it could equal trouble. I worry that I will have the same problem that I have had in the past with not realizing that I lost a great deal of weight and had accomplished something amazing enough to fight for, to keep close to my heart. I so don't want that to happen and that is why I talk about it. It is a fear I have to face and fight off like a Spartan, with the ferocity it deserves! Now the good news is, once I have a habit set, it is almost impossible for me to lose it, hence the weight gain each time I have taken this journey in the past. I feel empowered over this fear now having talked about it. Does anyone else or has anyone else had to deal with this problem?

I am kinda ashamed that I did not do any cardio today. I did get my push ups in and some weight lifting too, but at lunch I had to hang with the office folks as Rinda cooked us some mexican chicken casserole. We had a meal together which was nice. I could have gotten some in tonight but there was a bit of drama around the house that left me outside cleaning the back deck off and weeding the plants around back as a cool down period. I guess I could count that as cardio but it didn't really wear me down or anything. I did sweat a good bit though! Did I mention it is hot here in Arkansas? Oh and here is a positive note to end on. I am slowly beginning to hate the idea of eating pizza!! It just isn't a good calorie choice! It is all we had to cook tonight and I had a half of a Totino's pizza for 370 calories and quite frankly, I was aggravated to have to waste that many calories on such a small portion of food! I only had 700 left by dinner and I wasted over half on that little half a Totino's pizza. I finished the day with some tuna with miracle whip horseradish dressing and some mustard pickled cauliflower! yum!

Kathy, Lauren, our old neighbor Brooklyn and I are all going to go out and watch the meteor shower in in about a half hour. I love meteor showers. So I am gonna sign off with the request that all my blog friends keep on inspiring me and I will try to do the same for you.

5 comments:

  1. Shane, you don't have to be ashamed about your lack of cardio today. You've done really well...a day of rest is okay even necessary. :)

    I can't wait to hear how your weigh-in goes! I know it's going to be good! Wooo hooo! :)

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  2. Thanks Kenz. I won't make you wait. It was 11 pounds lost!!! And another 1 1/2 inch gone off my belly!!! I am riding high on this news on my last day at my job and a Friday the 13th!!

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  3. Shane, working outside is exercise. Especially in the heat. I'm so excited about your weigh in. Can't wait to hear!

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  4. Shane, you're doing a great job! It sounds like yesterday was a kind of emotionally-turbulent day for you, with the job and the home drama. I hope that you get an opportunity to wind down a little bit over the weekend. Keep up the great work!

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  5. 11 lbs! Great job, bro, you are rocking the plan!

    What a great attitude to have toward your employers. You will need their recommendation as you move along toward the bar exam, so it's great to leave on a happy note.

    Have a great weekend!

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