Well I will skip straight to the title. I was starving all day!!!! I started off with a normal menu of one whole egg, one egg white, some sliced pinapple and the bowl of cereal. I have been starving a lot since Saturday afternoon, so today I built in a mid morning snack of more pineapple to try to combat it. It didn't work and so after lunch and class, I had an extra pita and turkey sandwich for an extra 130 calories in the hope it would even out whatever was throwing me off. It did not and even after my tuna snack, which usually does the job of satisfying me till dinner, I could tell I was gonna be hungry in a short while. So on the way to my evening class, I stopped at Wendy's and got a 5 piece spicy chicken nugget to eat before class. It seemed like it was almost about to do the job until around 6, when I was hungry again! At this point, I was only up to 900 calories. So on the trip home, I decided that I was going to invest the calories in a Totinos pizza and see if that would plug the huge hole I was experiencing. It did thank goodness and at first it seemed offend my sensibilities. After all it was "junk food". But then it came to me, no it wasn't. It was a little different than what I have been normally eating lately. It was not conventional health food. But, and it is a big but, there is no real "junk food" if you think about it. There is just food. Food is food. The only thing that matters is your relationship with food. I had the calories to spend, I spent them on a food that I like and I never broke the balance of the calorie bank and trust. I think that is the hurdle many of us have in losing weight without some elaborate system, there is no "rules" on what to eat, what not to eat. Nobody has told you the "correct way" to eat to lose weight. In fact, it is all up to you, apart from the setting up parameters, such as the calorie bank and trust. The real challenge is training yourself to not overdo portions, to not bargain with yourself regarding the calorie bank and trust, to create new habits and attitudes towards food. No "rules" so that it becomes a sustainable way of life. Something you can put in your pocket and carry with you till you are old and gray, thinner and healthier. And if in all that, pizza is eaten, then so be it. If the occasional mini chocolate bar is eaten, then so be it. In moderation is the key folks, in moderation.
That being said, I am hoping for a clue to my recent "holy crap I am starving AGAIN?" problem. I am hoping someone, maybe my good friend Dr. F, can help me get this phenomena. I think I have a possible explanation. I just worry that maybe I am making excuses and I don't want to do that. I wonder if I was getting too much activity on too little calories the whole weekend. I mean I did a hard 5k on saturday morning, then golf and car washing too. Then on Sunday, I did another 5k but at a reasonable pace, then hiking for an hour and a half. In both those days combined I think I was like 1100 net calories after taking off for my activities, so an average of 550 unburned off calories for each day. Will that somehow make your body begin to ask for more food? Should I just ignore it and move on? I considered that it may be that on days like those, I need to raise my calories, but I don't want to use the activity as an excuse to eat more. I really worry about the consequences of allowing myself some slack. Oh I hate being inside my own head! Any thoughts or experience dealing with this guys?