Day 55 I Give Up!!!!

I have had what I would call a strange conundrum here lately. I am struggling to get enough calories, or at least what I think is enough. I have been having to snack most of the night to get to 15 or 1600 calories. Tonight, I just threw my hands up at 1400 and said hell with it, I give up! How does it come to this? How do you get from there (I ate all night after supper) to here (trying to make it to 1500?). I mean wow. Not very fathomable sometimes. Not complaining, but I am done trying to get there. If I am not hungry then heck with it, I will stick at 13 or 1400 and so be it.

I am stealing from Cori today the fact that I had a pants victory. I had bought a pair of pants back in the winter when I had made a run at getting some weight loss. They were bought as goal pants. They were the right price but a size too small according to the tag, two sizes according to the actual fit! Guess who so wore those pants today? It was me!!!! I wore those pants! And they are nice pants too. I am beginning to have a much bigger wardrobe for the moment. I am in between sizes so that I can wear some stuff I out grew but I can still wear my bigger stuff, although some stuff is fixing to get put away. My bigger pants tend to look funny on me now. I am lucky that I have a wife that is a bargain shopping fool and she can start replacing retired clothes with smaller clothes once we get some dang money!

I am kinda griped that my thighs are still so sore. I am really seriously planned on not taking a walk today so I could get them ok, but it worked out that i had to have Lauren to school early for honor choir try outs, which she made by the way!!! I had a good bit of time to burn so I went to Wal Mart and got a mile in before work. And I have thoughts of maybe jumping on the treadmill for 3 minutes and jogging just to get the feel of it and see if now is the time or I need to wait. Oh I don't think I have mentioned it here, but I can jump rope again!!! I used to have a huge pain in my back when I tried, but the other day I was showing off for Lauren and one of her friends that I could jump rope better and around my thirtieth straight jump, my shorts fell off!! I was wearing a too big cut off shirt and boxer briefs, so it wasn't a huge deal but man it was embarassing!

I had my usual menu apart from my evening snack. I had my usual yogurt but I decided to add some protein to my total today. I boiled two eggs and put a tablespoon of the horseradish Miracle Whip (20 calories) and a tablespoon of spicy brown mustard (10 calories). It was not my favorite mixture, so no more of that!!

I am down to 33 hours till weigh in! I am excited to get this one in. If this isn't the one that gets me to the 250's, then the next one will be and I am excited!! Still got 259 in my head.

Well I am thinking I am gonna go find some shoes and do that jogging thing I talked about. Bye everybody.