Thursday, November 18, 2010

Day 126 Butterflies In My Stomach!

I will get right to it. I am nervous as hell. Tomorrow is weigh in day and I have myself all worked up right now. I am hoping I have done enough to have lost at least 5 pounds this last two weeks. I so desperately want to be in the 220's right now. It would for sure, no doubt about it, be the least I have weighed since 2001 and maybe as light as I have been since I was 20.That would be huge!! So this feels like right before you take the field, only it is kinda backwards. I have to see if I won based on what I did do, not on what I am about to do.

I have a habit of thinking ahead a couple of months when I am walking in the mornings. For some reason, I skipped a few months today. I went straight to July. I was skinny, tan and moving around just fine thank ya! I think that the ability to think ahead is one of the keys to my success so far. You have to look past the pain, the frustration, the soreness and tiredness and understand that in one week, this workout or this hunger or this emotional state will be less powerful, your strength, your courage, your determination will be gaining power, and that 1 mile of walking won't be enough for you. You will need two, then three, then five. That 2000 calories bank you try to stick to out of fear, goes down to 1800 and then 1500. This story is mine in a nutshell. I saw all of it happen too. I forecast it in my early days. I could just feel it happening, even before it happened. That is how the thoughts of maintenance have started already, I want to envision maintenance and make it real too.

I apologize for kinda rambling but I am just nervous and excited and scared and hopeful tonight. I would appreciate any good thoughts ya'll could send my way.



8 comments:

  1. Keep the positive thinking going and visualize yourself in the 20's. I'll be sending big vibes your way. And I sent you a big thank you on my post... check it out walking buddy.

    20's, 20's, 20's, 20's, 20's, 20's, 20's, 20's....

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  2. I have no doubts that you will see an awesome number tomorrow! I can't wait to hear the results.

    I love your second paragraph. It hit home. I have a hard time looking forward.

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  3. I'm waiting and also for your LSAT results. I spend a lot of time waiting so I'm pretty good at it. Congratulations!

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  4. I have confidence that you will get good results Shane. Regardless of what the number on the scale says, you are succeeding every day in staying on plan and motivating others through your wisdom, awesome personality and great sense of humor. Have a wonderful weekend!

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  5. You know, I loved this post! I think when you have waited along time to regain your health, it is delicious inspiration to thin k about the future as fit. I do, too, Shane. I imagine myself next summer biking and hiking to my heart's content. And that is juts for starters. I plan to hike down the Grand Canyon late next spring when I will be close to my goal weight, plus I am taking up paddling, as soon as the ice is out.So, ya, I am dreaming too.

    Thanks for your comments on my blog today. I know what you mean about getting up from something low. I had (HAD) the same trouble getting out of beach chairs. But, NO more!

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