I had to admit it today. I have been on break. I did a whole bunch of weight losing, it took up a great deal of my mental energy for several months. It was fairly well my main focus, even with a family and a career and school, I managed to make it the thing I treasured the most. And then I made my first goal, to get to Onederland. It seems that after that, I kinda decided to go on cruise control. I have a lot going on right now. I really just needed one less thing to think about. So I have done an eeeeeh to poor job in keeping my diet and lately my exercise, to levels that are acceptable to me. I was on a break. And I don't know that this is a bad thing. I have not put on weight, I haven't lost any either. But my main concern is the poor eating habits I am letting slip back in a little at a time. I had a lot of Easter candy yesterday, I had a personal meat lovers pizza and a fajita taco salad on Saturday. I rationalize that I am exercising and being more active in general and those are offsetting any gain that may come. But the truth is, I am not where I need to be yet. I need to be back on track and heading into the 180's. So today, I declare my break over. I am now officially back in the game. I only have two days of class left, then next week is finals. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel for school, so that takes that stress away. Kathy and I had a discussion last night about our financial situation and how we can do better in the future and she seemed really on board with all that we talked about and we are both ready to get this ship righted and headed down smooth waters. My mom and I are back on good terms and she is being a bit more understanding about the demands on my time. And I have found a great church that the whole family likes and wants to be active in. All these things added together leave me in what I believe is a good spot to get started again on challenging my scale to go to the lower numbers! 185, here I come! So for my first goal, I am wanting to be down from the 198 of last Friday to 195 two weeks from last Friday. Goal 1 set. It is on!!!