I know I have talked about having a few bad days last week after I hit One-derland. I was truly not sure why I was languishing after having such drive and determination for so long. I had tried some prop me up things, like my new mantra "I ain't going to law school as a lard ass" (which has been hugely successful by the by), but I knew I had to get to the low down on why I was not in the same frame of mind as I was prior to hitting that huge objective. As is often the case, inspiration comes to me when I am working out. I seem to reach a clarity of mind on the treadmill, on the road, or on the park trail when I am jogging. I did not set a specific goal after that huge accomplishment. I was ,well, languishing. So as I worked that out in my head, I started doing some math on how many weigh days I had between now and the end of April, how many pounds I thought it was reasonable I could lose each weigh day, and came up with my new goal. I want to be at 189 by April 22nd!! If I come up just short of that, then I want to be there by May 6 so that I can walk across that graduation stage in my 180's, a full 111 pounds or more lighter than when I got my Associates degree! That graduation picture may be one of my least proud moments ever. I look at it and just get a little sad now. Once this new picture is developed, the first one may "disappear" mysteriously.
I got the biggest adrenaline rush yesterday. I know I was already told by the dean of admissions I was being admitted to University of Arkansas School of Law, but I got the actual acceptance letter yesterday!!! I was so excited and my mind was buzzing a million miles an hour and it was just a wonderful feeling! I have scheduled a visit to the school so I can get familiar with it and I need to get my registration secured while I am up there. Oh and I have the best boss ever!! She and Jill got me a present and a very wonderful card to celebrate my admission and gave it to me yesterday. I got two books about surviving your first year of law school! I plan on giving them both a read this weekend and I am extremely grateful that I have such a wonderful boss or heck even just person as Cheryl Fisher Anderson in my life! She is so awesome. I can't even put it into words.
I am having a crisis of conscious. I have become extremely bad at commenting on blogs lately. It just seems I am going 100 miles an hour all the time and I do read them all in my feed, I just have gotten terrible at responding to them. It was all I could do it seems to pull out of the spiral of not posting I went through recently. I am sorry if I have offended anyone by my lack of participating lately. I will try to work on it, but at present, I have enough balls in the air that I am not sure how long it will be before I can make this right.
Ya'll have a wonderful Thursday and I will see you in the morning for yet another weigh in. I am not nearly as nervous about this one. it is kinda weird.