I had an unusual prayer to God after my gym visit today. I had to pray for amnesia. I am having a hard time with holding on to what I accomplished before and not appreciating my gains over the past month of working out. Today I went up a level on the treadmill program and did 20 minutes of an extremely light jog, and then for the next 10 minutes, I had to finish the program a level lower than I started. The light jogging, it was 3.8 miles an hour.... some uphill, but still. I used to run 6.3-6.5 mph before. Aaaaaaarrrrrggggh!!
So today, I prayed to let all that go. This is after all a new era, a peace time mission. I think this blog will help me with that. I still think that at least part of my success last time was about me blogging, and being able to focus myself rather than having tons of thoughts floating around. Here, I can put abstract thoughts on paper and make them real and more achievable. Plus I can come back and read these. I have a terrible memory, so if I come up with a plan that is strictly kept in the abstract in my head, then I forget it.
So here I go. I am no longer aiming to get back to the same shape I was, I am looking to get in to shape, period. I don't want to run a fast 5k again, I want to run a fast 5k. Heck, I'm not stopping there. 10k and half marathon are on the radar. The new attitude is now not what I did being awesome, but how awesome what i am going to do will be!!