Friday, August 3, 2012
Day 7 That Swagger and The Frenzy
Today has been a good one I have to say. One of the things I miss the most is that energy I had when I was much thinner than I am now. I was literally always fidgety, ready to do something. I have over the past few months been getting in the bad habit of being ok with sitting around in my recliner or at my desk reading, with no desire to get up and go out and find SOMETHING to do. Not that I have had a lot of extra time even if I would have had the energy, but that is not the point. So while I still don't have the same "giggety giggety let's go" energy I had before, I am getting it back some. And I am also beginning to get that "swagger" I had too. I loved getting such great news from the scale this morning. I can't really explain it, but when feel that swagger, I just walk differently, like I am just one BAD DUDE! I get all giddy about just being alive and having accomplished something so important to me. Today, I started a new habit. I am going to not just look up and tell God thanks for the blessings, but I am now going to start getting down on my knees and bowing my head and send up prayers of thanks for all blessings, not just scale blessings. As I said before and I will keep saying, God sent me the wisdom I prayed for to get my back on the losing weight track! My second huge accomplishment was fighting of a "frenzy". I don't get this but I am a person who really actually gets hungry really easily. So though I do mostly eat out of habit or emotion when I am not dieting, when I do get the right mindset to get on the ball, I deal with hunger a lot. Well one of the habits I have is that whether I am dieting or not, when I get one thing to eat, I want another thing to eat, and then I get into what I call a feeding frenzy mode. I just start going around finding various random things to eat in the house. Today, I came home to check on Lauren and her progress in her chore list, and I was legitimately hungry. So I got the last bite of some left overs that amounted to nothing. It was literally one bite of chicken fried steak patty that was left over. But as soon as I took that bite, I began to scan the fridge for something else to eat. I spotted about 3 things that looked good, then I remembered there were cookies in the pantry and so on and so on. But today, I am proud to say, I fought off a frenzy!! I say I did, but the reality is that God help me. Phillipians 4:13, I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength! I have one more big test to get through today, and I am feeling pretty good right now. We are having an all four parents dinner with Lauren tonight. The bad news is Golden Corral was the choice for the meeting place. As we all know, that is one place where 10,000 calories could easily be consumed!! But I have already been steeling myself. I am hoping there is a menu I can order off of that is just a meal and no bar. But if there is not, I am going to sit down and drink two glasses of water straight before I ever go look at the food bar. I want my stomach full as a tick before I ever even think of putting food in it. Then I am going to go around and make the best food choices available to me in the environment. I have a feeling this is a great learning opportunity if I will let it be!