This Is Getting To Be Too Regular

So I had a little melt down last night. I ate to distract myself. Did not enjoy it in the least. I am fixing to tell you why and it will sound like a rationalization a little, but one thing I can tell you, it was a tool to make me distracted by being pissed at myself more than a pleasure seeking trip.

Only I can have this luck. God obviously has sense of humor in how this all played out. As I told you, I took the LSAT three weeks ago. It takes them awhile to get your score to you. I am a avid email checker and have been more so in the last week anticipating my score coming in. Well the last conversation I had with the assistant dean of admissions, he basically told me I needed to get my score up 5 points to get admission. I made a 146 then. So I have been hoping for at least a 151. However, he didn't say you will be accepted if it is up 5 points I don't think. So last night I had class till late and didn't get home until 8:30. I check my e mail and there it is! The notification that I got the 151!! I am excited I got it but it occurs to me immediately that it puts me on the cusp! There is a formula they use as I understand it that takes your GPA and your LSAT score into account and gives you and index number that either you get the auto admit or you have to write a letter explaining why you should get provisional admission. I am hoping to avoid the provisional admission by getting the auto admit with my score, but, here is the thing. I find this out at 9 at night! The assistant dean of admissions is obviously not reachable at 9 at night, and I will tell you this, I am not a patient person on normal every day issues, so imagine how impatient I must be on life altering issues!! I am completely going nuts at this point in time trying to see if I can find that UA School of Law uses a formula, what index gets you an auto in, any info I can find and I am not able to . I obviously shoot off an email to Mr. Miller with my numbers to ask if these will get me admission, for good measure I shoot one off to admissions as well, but by this time, I have exhausted all measures I can take for the moment! I am not a good passive person, I am active in crisis. So with nothing to do to take my mind off of the situation, I started snacking. Now before you get to livid, keep in mind, not many crappy snack around here anymore. My snacking consisted of yogurt, a banana, a celery stick with pb, a spoon of pb. But then it got serious, I went all cereal on my ass!! Two bowls of Reeses Puffs! that was the end of it, but it did get me pissed at myself for being weak and take my mind off the law school dilemma. And of course, Mr. Dead Sleeper didn't sleep worth a crap last night. I was up till almost 11, which is unheard of and Kathy got the biggest kick out of, and woke up twice in the night and had hell getting back to sleep. I did hit the snooze several times this morning though. So today's plan is to stay busy. I am going to jog today but I think rather than go for the 4.5 miles I talked about, I am gonna keep it to just over 3 today. I have been pushing pretty hard so I may "take it easy" ..... haha. I am also thinking I will keep the jog local so that I can get right back to the house to check my email when I am done. I will be awaiting some sort of answer with baited breath obviously!! If I haven't gotten the answer by the end of my jog, I am going to load up some scrap metal I have around and go sell it, I am going to change the oil in my truck and do the windows. It still has a nicotine film on all the windows and that bothers the hell out of me but I haven't had the chance this week to address it! Tonight will be the first time all week I don't have a late night ahead of me!

Ok, I am gonna go get the girls rousted out of bed and get them going so I can get my self occupied with physical tasks and get my mind off this waiting!!