Thursday, February 17, 2011

Oh Those Mental Gymnastics, Gotta Love'em

Good fine morning Blogland. I am up and at'em and ready for a new day. Mostly because I got aggravated with the old one... haha. I have been ramping up my workouts some the last week or so to try to make sure that I comfortably make it into Onederland on February 25th. I have been loving finding that my threshold for pushing myself has grown much higher than I ever could have imagined it 6 months ago. It is very empowering! However, yesterday was quite a challenge for me in the eating department, and ultimately, I wound up caving at around 7 last night. I didn't go all super binge or anything, but the starvation I felt all day yesterday finally got to me, and I don't know if it was rationalization or what, but I finally said to myself "self, go get some food and get satiated dammit. sitting around starving is sucking!" So although I had had my usual meals and snacks already, I went ahead and had some extra food for the day. I wound up getting an ounce of my special cheese I got from Sam's last week, about two ounces of potato salad, three cookies, a half of a leftover hamburger patty, about two ounces of deli lunchmeat. I know that all put me over 2000 calories for the day, but I have to admit, I woke up feeling better today than I have in days! Even before my morning coffee. So I have to wonder, was it really that I needed some nourishment due to overtraining, or did my mind just rationalize a binge? I would like to think I am past just eating to eat, but I don't know that I am. I know I am on track mentally this morning. There is no urge to go off the path today. In fact, I was thinking since I am taking the day off working out, I may even shoot for a big calorie deficit today, like 1100 or so to maybe mitigate yesterday. I hate just trying to figure things out sometimes, especially with this upcoming weigh in having so much riding on it! does anybody have any thoughts? I am glad to have this forum if nothing else than to write this stuff down and mull through it, but I do love it when I get some input from my peeps! often times, your objectivity helps me see something I may have missed.



4 comments:

  1. THREE cookies, LOL! Drink a lot of water, and eat reasonable calories today, you will be fine.

    There have been times I have felt crabby, and eating white pita & eggplant dip made me feel better, physically, not just emotionally. As long as I am losing weight, and generally eating healthy, I am not going to save the world by never eating white bread. Maybe it is a rationalization, but if you are achieving your goals, it is worse to obsess about it, in my opinion.

    Good luck on your weigh in.

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  2. I would have to think if you're stepping up your workouts then you may have to adjust your calories from time to time too. I know when I do a harder workout for a day or two, it catches up with me!!

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  3. I say at this point in the game that you would know the difference between eating because of emotional reasons and listening to your body when it needs something. In my opinion, I think your body needed something extra. But I'm no expert.

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