No Deals

When I worked at my old law firm, one of my duties was to make deals on civil lawsuits. Our clients that had gotten some credit cards, ran them up and then figured out that oh snap, that wasn't free money, they want paid, came to us when they got sued. So by the time I left, the one thing I was pretty good at was making deals for them. I learned what attorneys I could wait out, call the day before the court date and say hey, will you take x amount of dollars to get this thing off the docket for tomorrow? often times you got 1/2 or better off the amount they were suing for. or at the least, they would take small payments. Well, that kinda suits me and my personality. I am a deal maker. Especially with myself. I can talk myself into anything. So one of the things I am determined to do now that I am back on the wagon is to stop making deals with myself. I will freely admit my biggest issue is evening snacking, so I am now focused on making myself not eat after supper. That is the last meal, period. Well tonight is night two and I stopped myself from deal making. We have tomatoes here in the house from my mother in law's garden. I decided that it would be ok to cut one up and eat it. hell 40 calories ain't hurting me, I am at 1610 calories for the day. Buuuuut, God answered my prayers and said nope, not the plan Shane. I backed down and here I sit typing about my victory instead of my failure!! PTL baby!

So I was thinking about this. Habits are habits. that is a given. Here is a fun tidbit about me though. I now have two sets of habits. I have the old snacking habits, not watching my calories habits, just bad habits in general. However, I also have the calorie logging, eating right, show me the calorie deficit habits too. Here is the thing. Either set of habits is very natural to me. I can fall very easily into either. Granted the "break" I just took was not me going back into my old habits full on, but I could see that slippery slope coming! But, here is the thing, I had no problem at all getting right back into the good habits the last two days either! How cool is that?