Day 139 You Have Got To Be Kidding Me!!!

It is Wednesday of weigh in week and the anxiety begins. I love it. I love the anticipation, I love the anxiety, I love the extreme extreme focus I get on the last two days before weigh in. This weigh in holds a special place in my life though. Again, without any way to prove this, I am going to say that this will be the first time ever that I weigh LESS after Thanksgiving than I did before it! Now the real question is going to be, how much less I weigh this time as compared to two weeks ago. I seriously am hoping for something in the two hundred teens. I always start trying to envision the number I will see on Friday on Wednesday before, and for some reason I kept seeing 217 during my walk yesterday. I know it sounds crazy, but I am not wishing for that number, that is not why I see it, I just open my heart and the numbers come to me. I have been right waaaaaaaaaaay more times than not. I doubt this number, since that would be 9 pounds gone and 8 has been my trend. But I just couldn't shake that number off. It kept coming to me. I sincerely hope that I am right in my vision, but if I am not and a 220 something comes up, I am ok with that. And I will tell you why. I had a huge experience tonight. Not life changing huge I don't guess but in a way it was. I am getting giddy just fixing to type it. So about 6 months or so ago, my friend Vicki bought me a t-shirt at a yard sale. It was a University of Arkansas School of Law t-shirt, but it was a large. I told her thank you, but I would probably never be able to wear it, so don't get offended if she never sees me in it. She said she understood completely she just thought I would like it. Weeeeeeeell, I just got curious tonight after looking at the pictures from this past weekend, so I went in my closet, drug out the t-shirt with no X's in the size and holy cow would you believe that it fit on me!!!! Not quite perfectly, it was kinda tight on the chest, but not uncomfortably tight!! And it fit my belly just fine!!! I have never been more excited in my life!!!! I put on t-shirt with now X's!!! So regardless of my number on Friday, I am on cloud 9 for the time being. I wore that shirt all night tonight and just marveled at it the whole time. God is good, no God is GREAT!! Thank you so much for blessing me Lord. And thanks to each of you who follow and encourage me on my journey. It is my accountability to ya'll that keeps me focused on the hard days, that makes me be better than I am. It ya'lls stories that encourage me, that I draw strength and knowledge from. All this is just so amazing and seemed so impossible on July 16, 2010. But July 17, 2010 started a whole new chapter in my life, one that I am writing a new story line to everyday. And I am loving the plot so far!!!