Reality Check

I was tasked with bringing cookies into work this morning. Kathy made them for my co-workers as a thank you for not killing me for my antics. Honest and truly, I wanted to drop them on the kitchen table and never look at them. But not being that self-disciplined, I broke into them. That was a great opportunity for me to do the "quittin' thang" again. But I decided that the 5 cookies I just ate didn't knock me off the train tracks, it just slowed the train down. I can keep on those tracks, but the speed the train goes is up to me and my choices. 5 cookies means I went from 35 mph to 15 mph. But I can start putting the better fuel in my body, and get back to 35 mph, then 55mph if I keep avoiding the crappy fuel! That is the reality, one bump is not the end. 5 bumps are not the end. The goal shouldn't ever be to have no bumps, but to make the bumps further and further apart each time!!

Make This Journey A Conscious Part Of My Day

I have come to find that I am good at either sub-consciously letting myself go into what I called "float mode" or I am just too lazy to keep on track. I am not sure which it is, but I know it is lethal to my progress. So without getting too much into this, I have decided that perhaps one of the reasons I did well before is because I blogged my rear-end off. I said something about this journey each and every day, which kept it at the forefront of my mind.

So one of my new goals is to find a time, even if it is five minutes, to come on here and more or less just journal something about my journey. Doesn't have to be an epiphany, doesn't have to be profound. I just need to address it in some form of concrete form, and not just in a phantasmic way.

For example, I had to fight a small battle this morning, but I won it this morning. I have gotten into a bit of a habit of having two eggs and some cheese for breakfast at home. Then, I reason that since I ate at 5 a.m. this morning, it makes sense to get a mid morning breakfast too, because (insert some excuse here). Ok, maybe on the days I have no idea how long court is going to go, that isn't the worse plan (I can't bring food into court obviously) but for all the other days, that is ignorant. So it took some real self-control, but I did manage to pass all my usual breakfast spots.

Reset The Goals, Reset The Focus, Avoid A Non-Starter Maybe?

I want to run a half marathon. So in my planning, one of the staples is that I want to lose pounds. So I work on that first. The driving force behind my motivation is to see the scale say I am making progress. If I fail there, then my half marathon is a non-starter. So starting today, I am going to search out a half marathon for next year. I am going to put all my focus into training for that half marathon. And if I happen to lose a few pounds a long the way, then so be it.